Nicole SmuinJan 15, 20224 minOne yearWe just passed the one-year mark of losing our most precious gift- the one-year mark of having our lives shattered. This year has been...
Nicole SmuinOct 6, 20214 minConfidence?"They say the difference between arrogance and confidence is the willingness to learn." From a very little age, CJ was full of confidence....
Nicole SmuinAug 8, 20213 minWhere do you Stand?"It's easy to be first in line when things are easy, but where do you stand when things are tough." This quote is from the song "Boys of...
Nicole SmuinJul 1, 20214 minRegretsLet me start by saying, I would do anything to prevent another parent from going through this. I always worry when I share that I may...
Nicole SmuinMay 31, 20213 minEarly GriefIt took me a month after losing CJ before I had the strength, or was even “with-it“ enough mentally to write anything. This is the first...
Nicole SmuinMay 1, 20212 minThe ChoiceI’ve always seen myself as a pretty optimistic person. I think I’ve mostly seen the glass as half-full as opposed to half-empty in my...
Nicole SmuinApr 23, 20213 min2nd ChancesOver the last five months, trying to process losing CJ, and trying to process that he took his own life, has been nothing short of...